Tuesday, September 18, 2018

9/8/22018 Caring Bridge

Journal entry by Joanne Negstad — Sep 8, 2018
      There's a dissonance that may just be the new reality of my life.  Today, for an example, I've had a delightful day with friends; good food, good conversation, good memories, good companionship.  It has been very satisfying for me, and yet; it's incomplete...it even seems unfair...unfair that Joanne is missing it.  This leads to a deep ache as I realize what she's missing and how this is only the beginning of so much that she will miss. She would have enjoyed everything about this day.   But, she's dead...and I'm not.  Why?  Why wasn't I more attentive to her, to our life together, to the passage of time?
     Yes, but in spite of my grief I do recognize that I am blessed.

Blessings,

Al

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