Journal entry by Joanne Negstad — a minute ago
Joanne needn't have worried that I'd withdraw and become a hermit. Her concern stemmed from the times she'd be ready to do something social and I'd be reluctant. It was the ultimate extrovert living with the introvert. Circumstances change. The most difficult time for us was in the earlier years of our marriage when she was a 'stay at home mom.' My work kept me involved with people so I'd yearn for quiet time at home to empty my 'people bladder'. But, she would long for socializing with adults after a day at home with the children. When we were both working full time some of that tension was eased.
Circumstances change. Living alone, as I do now, creates a whole different dynamic. I've always needed people, but I've always also needed my time with people to be balanced with time alone...to "empty my people bladder" as I say. 😀 Recognizing my need for people I've engaged in an active social life since Joanne's death because she's not here to help me fill that need. . Take today for an example; first, I had breakfast with a friend, then I taught school for an hour and a half, this was followed by lunch with another friend and then the day was completed with dinner with three friends. Each of those engagements was very satisfying and after them I was ready to be home alone.
As I've frequently mentioned the hardest part is not being able to share them with Joanne, i.e., the after.
Blessings,
Al
Circumstances change. Living alone, as I do now, creates a whole different dynamic. I've always needed people, but I've always also needed my time with people to be balanced with time alone...to "empty my people bladder" as I say. 😀 Recognizing my need for people I've engaged in an active social life since Joanne's death because she's not here to help me fill that need. . Take today for an example; first, I had breakfast with a friend, then I taught school for an hour and a half, this was followed by lunch with another friend and then the day was completed with dinner with three friends. Each of those engagements was very satisfying and after them I was ready to be home alone.
As I've frequently mentioned the hardest part is not being able to share them with Joanne, i.e., the after.
Blessings,
Al
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