Journal entry by Joanne Negstad — Aug 4, 2018
As time rolls on since Joanne died, there are longer periods in which I'm not aware of the 'absence'. Busy in my daily pursuits, I don't think about being alone. Life alone, or with family and friends, offers joy and satisfaction. There are so many people I enjoy, and activities that bring pleasure, it is fair to say I'm often happy? Yes!
And then, I will remember the 'absence' and it seems about as painful as it was at the beginning. It seems so unfair to Joanne that I'm getting to be with the people she loved and enjoyed and she's not. Is it appropriate for me to be happy without her? This is a muddle of thoughts and feelings. It is so raw, this going on with out her and facing the reality that with time the distance will grow. This is all new to me.
Blessings,
al
And then, I will remember the 'absence' and it seems about as painful as it was at the beginning. It seems so unfair to Joanne that I'm getting to be with the people she loved and enjoyed and she's not. Is it appropriate for me to be happy without her? This is a muddle of thoughts and feelings. It is so raw, this going on with out her and facing the reality that with time the distance will grow. This is all new to me.
Blessings,
al
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