Journal entry by Al Negstad — 29 minutes ago
Family and friends have carried me through this year in the land of grief. Without them I don't know that I would have made it and, if I would have, certainly not as well. Their presence in my life fills me with gratitude as I realize how blessed I am.
One of the realities that comes with the loss of a spouse is a loss of standing. Likely the bereaved is no longer number one for anyone. For 55, years I was number one for Joanne as she was number one for me. Now I must live in that memory while recognizing that I no longer carry that status with anyone. That is a reality that creates loneliness for me even as I recognize and celebrate the love and support of a host of family and friends.
Please don't misunderstand. This changes nothing about my recent assertions that I have myself back. It is just the reality and the shape of the grief I carry in this land.
Blessings,
Al
Picture: The bouquet placed in church today in memory of Joanne.
One of the realities that comes with the loss of a spouse is a loss of standing. Likely the bereaved is no longer number one for anyone. For 55, years I was number one for Joanne as she was number one for me. Now I must live in that memory while recognizing that I no longer carry that status with anyone. That is a reality that creates loneliness for me even as I recognize and celebrate the love and support of a host of family and friends.
Please don't misunderstand. This changes nothing about my recent assertions that I have myself back. It is just the reality and the shape of the grief I carry in this land.
Blessings,
Al
Picture: The bouquet placed in church today in memory of Joanne.
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